The Old Blog in the Desert

The news hit me this evening like a bad needle drop that Grateful Dead guitarist Bob Weir left us for that big stage in the sky. For a few quiet minutes, the music stopped me cold, and I was right back in Southern Humboldt, sitting in a little radio station that smelled like hot electronics, coffee that had been on too long, and redwood damp.

I met Bob back in the day at KERG, a small commercial FM station tucked near Redway and Garberville. The Urge, we called it. K Eel River G.

I was young, broke, and absurdly proud of my job. Three shifts a week, Tuesday through Thursday, from 4 a.m. to 4 p.m.

Twelve-hour days for six bucks an hour. That was good money for radio back then, especially in the Emerald Triangle, where “time” and “schedule” were more like friendly suggestions.

KERG was a strange and wonderful beast. Fifty thousand watts of community voice blasting out into the redwoods, aimed squarely at the back-to-the-land crowd, growers, dreamers, and folks who had decided society worked better if you leaned back a little.

The station was part of the Grateful Dead in a way that felt both casual and cosmic.

It was commercial, technically, but “commercial” mostly meant one ad for poly-tubing, sold by the foot, essential for anyone trying to move water uphill or keep a quiet garden alive. We’d fire it off while flipping the LP, then slip right back into the groove like nothing had happened.

Dan Healy, the Dead’s legendary sound man, was the brain and backbone behind it. Jerry Garcia’s presence hovered around the place like weather.

Some people swore they worked for Jerry. Others said Jerry ran the station.

The truth lives somewhere in between, which feels exactly right for that scene. And then there was Bob Weir.

No big entrance or announcement. Bob just appeared.

One minute you’re cueing up another side of Europe ’72, the next minute there’s Bob on the studio platform like he might ask you where the bathroom is. He was friendly, low-key, and wholly curious.

No rock star nonsense. Just a guy in the room, listening, talking music, soaking up the vibe of this little outpost in the woods that somehow carried the Dead’s heartbeat.

Most shifts on-air were simple, with long stretches of Grateful Dead music, hours at a time, interrupted only by flipping a record. You learned how long an album side really was, learned patience, and that if you played the Dead long enough, someone out there was always listening, probably trimming plants or driving a pickup too fast on a narrow road.

KERG didn’t last. By 1987, it faded out, as so many things do. In its place came KMUD, a community radio that carried the torch forward and kept the voice local, weird, and alive.

But KERG mattered. It was a bridge, between eras, between music and place, between the Dead’s sprawling universe and a small community tucked into the redwoods.

So when I heard that Bob Weir was gone, for a moment, all of it came rushing back. The long shifts, endless records, and the feeling that music wasn’t just something you listened to, it was something you lived inside.

One night, my brother Adam and I were cruising through Crescent City with nowhere to be and all the time in the world. If you’ve ever been there, you know the drill: one-way north, one-way south, like the town itself is politely guiding you along, no detours, no surprises.

Back then, before every corner sprouted a stoplight like a weed, the streets were ruled by stop signs. Red octagons. Simple. Final.

Except not to Adam.

That night, Adam was so stoned he rolled up to a stop sign, came to a perfect, textbook stop, and just waited. Hands on the wheel. Eyes forward. Engine idling. A full, patient pause like he was doing his civic duty.

I finally looked over at him and said, “What the hell are you doing?”

He didn’t even turn his head. Just said, calm like, “Waiting for it to turn green.”

I laughed so hard I had to lean forward in my seat. Tears, wheezing, the whole thing.

Adam stayed serious for another beat, then cracked a grin as if he’d just realized he’d got caught being profoundly stupid. We drove on, laughing at nothing, laughing at everything.

That was Adam. Not a bad guy.

Not a genius either. Just wonderfully, spectacularly human.

On this date, he’s been missing from life for sixteen years now. Long enough that the world has replaced stop signs with lights and replaced people with memories, and long enough that moments like that feel sharper instead of softer.

I don’t miss the chaos he brought, or the trouble, or the worry. I miss the dumb stuff.

The unguarded moments. The nights when time didn’t matter and neither of us thought about consequences or endings.

When I remember him sitting there, waiting for a stop sign to change, I don’t laugh like I used to. I smile, shake my head, and feel that familiar ache in my chest.

And yeah—when I think of shit like that he did, I miss his sorry ass.

He spoke like a priest might, quiet and slow, as if the world around him had already burned down and he was reading its eulogy from a ruined pulpit. His words seemed pastoral, but they held razor blades of loneliness, indecision, and violence of choice.

He’d sit at the end of the counter in Maggie’s Diner every morning, drinking his coffee black and slow, turning the cup like a roulette wheel that never landed on anything but the same losing number. No one knew where he came from, or where he went at night.

They only knew he tipped exactly one dollar, no matter the total, and said, “Thank you, Maggie,” as if her name were the only word he still trusted.

Some days, he’d talk. Not much.

A few lines about the weather, the trucks that passed through town, or how the birds didn’t seem to sing as much lately. Maggie would nod, polite but guarded. She’d heard that tone before, from men who looked gentle but carried their own graves inside.

He told her about a woman he almost married. He said she loved books and quiet rooms and always smelled like fresh paint.

“We could’ve been happy,” he said, his voice breaking into something brittle. “But happiness is a thing you have to kill before it runs away. I wasn’t quick enough.”

Maggie didn’t ask what he meant. She just filled his cup again and looked away.

There was something off about him, something too calm, like a man rehearsing his own confession. He never smiled, but he wasn’t unfriendly either.

He was polite, steady, and restrained. A man trying very hard not to be seen, and failing at it.

Late one afternoon, when the rain had been falling for hours, he stayed after closing. Maggie was sweeping near the window, pretending not to notice.

“You ever think about leaving this place?” he asked, staring into his cup.

“Every damn day,” she said.

He nodded, still not looking at her. “I did. Left everything. Thought I’d start over. Turns out, all you ever start over with is yourself.”

The broom stopped. “That sounds like a sad kind of truth.”

He smiled then, barely. “Sadness is the only thing that sticks.”

When he left, he forgot his lighter on the counter. It was a cheap silver one, scratched and heavy.

Maggie picked it up and turned it in her hand. The initials carved into the bottom, E.D., were neat but not deep, like someone had pressed just hard enough to mean it.

The next morning, he didn’t come in. Nor the one after.

By the end of the week, his stool had stayed empty. The regulars noticed but didn’t ask. In towns like this, people vanished all the time, some by choice, others by accident.

Months later, a postcard arrived. No return address. Just a picture of a coastline no one recognized, and a single line written in that same careful hand: “Tell Maggie the coffee was always perfect.”

She kept the postcard behind the register, next to the lighter. Sometimes, when the morning light hit just right, she’d see her own reflection in the metal and wonder what kind of man could speak like a saint and bleed like a sinner.

And though she’d never admit it, she missed the way his words filled the air, gentle, poisonous, and holy in their own broken way. Some people don’t vanish, they linger, soft-spoken ghosts with razor-blade tongues, cutting you open long after they’re gone.

Everything vanished into the machinery of genocide, reduced to smoke and numbers. That’s what the archives said.

That’s what the professors said. But for Anton Keller, who catalogued the dead at the Ministry of Historical Continuity, it was all paperwork and cigarettes.

The human stain, gone before he showed up to sort the ashes. He sat in his small, gray cubicle, third floor, Room 312-B, surrounded by folders that smelled of mildew.

He never opened the windows; the air outside carried too many ghosts. The ceiling lights hummed, the radiator heater coughed, and somewhere down the hall, a clerk was crying quietly, but nobody said anything.

Anton had once been a poet, before the city decided poetry was a form of dissent. Now he worked with numbers.

His days were inventories, shipments of bones, lists of confiscated shoes, and meticulous death tallies. The Ministry wanted precision; precision was allegiance.

He’d learned to drink coffee like poison. Quickly, before it cooled, before he could taste it.

He had no friends. Friends asked questions.

He just had his desk, his ashtray, and the slow mechanical rhythm of forgetting.

The machinery ran without oil now. Everything squeaked and stalled.

Anton found it beautiful, in a detached sort of way, how even atrocity could become dull, and the monstrous reduced to bureaucratic fatigue. He supposed that was the real trick: making horror manageable by turning it into files.

One night, while sorting a new batch of files, he found a folder marked “Experimental Unit 47.” Inside was a name he recognized, Lea Rothmann.

They’d met years ago, before the city changed, before the walls went up. She’d been a painter, reckless and alive. He remembered her laugh, how it shattered the gray air.

The folder was thin. Too thin.

Just one sheet of paper, a number, and a date. No cause of death. No location. The machinery had eaten her, and this was all that remained: a line of digits and an unfiled memory.

Anton lit a cigarette and watched the smoke curl upward. For a moment, he thought he saw her face in it, eyes half-closed, as if she were tired of waiting. Then it was gone.

He should have shredded the file. That’s what the protocol said, but he slipped it into his coat pocket instead.

He didn’t know why. Perhaps guilt, or that he wanted proof that Lea had once existed outside the system.

The next morning, the city was colder. His breath fogged as he walked to work.

People stood in lines for ration cards, silent and gray. He imagined them all as future folders, future smoke.

The thought didn’t disturb him anymore. It only made him tired.

At the Ministry, the supervisor called him in. Said there’d been a discrepancy, one file missing: Unit 47.

The supervisor smiled without warmth. “These things are sensitive, Keller. Misplacing them looks disloyal.”

Anton said nothing. He just nodded and left.

That night, he burned the folder in his apartment’s sink. It took longer than he expected; the paper curled, blackened, and resisted.

The flame danced weakly, as if afraid. When done, Anton poured the ashes into his coffee cup and stirred them in, then drank slowly, grimacing at the bitterness.

Outside, the sirens wailed, routine inspections, curfews, the usual noise of the city choking on itself. Anton sat by the window, smoking, watching the smoke rise into the night.

He imagined it joining the others, drifting over the rooftops, merging with the gray sky that had long since forgotten the sun. In the end, he thought, the machinery doesn’t destroy things.

It absorbs them, takes love, memory, guilt, and smooths them into dust. The trick is not to care.

He exhaled, and the smoke hung in the air like an afterthought, then even that was gone.

The building looked like it had been peeled straight off a postcard from 1986, back when neon was the future, and everyone believed in progress. Its pastel facade, once described by some realtor as “perfect for Miami Vice,” had turned to chalk and mildew. Now it stood as a monument to failed ambition.

The parking lot told its own story, with cracked asphalt, fissures filled with weeds clawing toward daylight. The cars were ghosts of commuters past, faded sedans, a sun-bleached van, a coupe with two flat tires.

The trees had grown wild, their branches draping over the sidewalks and swallowing the signage whole. Behind the building, tents and tarps leaned together in shabby solidarity, flapping in the stale breeze.

Homeless people lived there now, feeding off the building’s slow decay like parasites on a dying animal.

Every weekday morning, Martin trudged through it all with his key card ready, as if the motion alone might still mean something. He’d been coming here for years.

The same walk from the parking lot, same flickering security light, same smell of damp carpet and burnt coffee. There was comfort in the repetition, but it had soured lately.

The faces had changed. Most of them were kids now, polite but distracted, all earbuds and Slack messages. They looked at him with that faint pity people reserve for things that used to matter.

He’d once had a corner office. That was before “the restructure.”

Now he sat in a cubicle under a buzzing fluorescent light that hummed like a migraine. His title, Senior Systems Analyst, had long since lost its meaning.

He was the last man standing from his original team. Every Friday, he’d tell himself: Just a few more months.

Ride it out until retirement. But lately, that word didn’t sound like freedom, but erasure.

At lunch, he’d sit in his car, the air thick with the smell of sun-baked vinyl, and watch the others walk to the café across the street. The new crowd laughed too loudly, optimism staged.

He’d light a cigarette, though the smoke irritated his throat now, and imagine just driving away, heading west until the gas ran out, but he never did. He always went back inside, swiping that damned card, waiting for the green light.

One evening, he stayed late, the office emptied and silent, except for the faint rattle of the air conditioning. Outside, the sky was bruised purple.

He stared at his monitor, at the spreadsheet columns that had defined his life in microcosm, hours, dates, names. None of it mattered.

He shut it off and packed his things slowly. The photo of his ex-wife, a coffee mug from some long-forgotten conference, a dead plant he’d never thrown away.

As he left, he walked around to the back of the building. The encampment was still, shadows hunched beneath blankets.

He saw a man digging through a garbage bin, collecting cans in a shopping cart. Their eyes met briefly.

Neither looked away. For a moment, Martin felt the strange, magnetic pull of recognition.

He reached into his pocket and pulled out his key card. The plastic rectangle that had granted him entry, that had tethered him to the illusion of purpose. He dropped it into the man’s cart without a word.

“Won’t open much,” Martin said, voice flat.

The man grinned, toothless, and shrugged. “Doesn’t matter. It’s something.”

Martin nodded. He turned toward the street, hands in his pockets, walking past the cracked asphalt and the dead cars. He didn’t look back.

The building stood behind him, hollow and waiting, like an old stage set for a show no one filmed anymore. By the time the streetlights flickered on, he was gone, just another twentieth-century relic stepping out of frame.

The wind began to blow before the sun rose. It picked up leaves and danced them across the asphalt with the sound of broken glass and chandelier jewels. Then it spoke her name.

“Lena…”

The whisper was soft, delicate, and wet, as if carried through a mouth that wasn’t quite human. Lena froze at her window, one hand on the cold glass, her reflection pale and hollow in the pre-dawn dim.

It wasn’t the first time she’d heard it. But it was the first time it had come from outside.

Lena lived at the edge of town, where the road ended, and the forest began, a dark mesh of pine and ash that swallowed the light even at noon. For weeks now, she’d dreamed of wind.

In the dreams, it moved like a creature through the trees, tugging at her hair, breathing against her neck, learning the shape of her name until it could pronounce it with perfect intimacy. Tonight, the dream had followed her into waking.

She pulled her robe tight and went to the porch. The wind gusted once, scattering the dying leaves into spirals that shimmered like scales before falling flat again.

The world seemed to hold its breath. “Lena…” It came again, from the trees.

The sound had direction. She could almost trace its origin, a hollow among the roots, like the earth itself exhaling.

Every instinct begged her to go back inside, to lock the door, to wait for the morning. But curiosity is a kind of gravity that pulls harder the more one resists.

She stepped down from the porch.

The wind curled around her ankles, warm despite the cold, coaxing. It pulled her toward the forest path she hadn’t walked since her mother’s disappearance three years ago.

The police had said she wandered off during a storm and never returned. But Lena had heard the wind that night, too, whispering something she hadn’t dared to understand.

She followed the voice now. The forest accepted her like a closing mouth.

The deeper she went, the louder it became. It wasn’t a single voice anymore but many, soft, murmuring, sighing, all speaking her name in fragments.

“Lena…enna…na…” They brushed her ears and the back of her neck, sometimes tender, sometimes hungry.

She reached the clearing where the old oak stood, enormous and black, its roots gnarled like clutching hands. Beneath it was the hollow, a pit lined with slick stones, half-filled with leaves and stagnant water.

The wind circled it, singing her name in a hundred different tones, as if inviting her to answer. She whispered back, “I’m here.”

The forest stilled.

Then, slowly, the wind changed direction. It didn’t come from above anymore. It rose from below. The surface of the water rippled, forming rings that spun inward, tighter and tighter, until something dark broke through.

At first, it was a wind, a swirling column of air and ash. But within it, forms began to take shape.

Faces. Dozens of them, shifting in and out of being, as if seen through fogged glass.

Some she recognized. Her mother, her grandfather, the woman who’d gone missing from the next town last winter.

Their mouths moved, but their eyes were empty, black with movement, as if something lay behind them.

“Lena,” they said together. “It’s time.”

She stumbled back, shaking her head. “Time for what?”

The wind swelled, rattling the branches until bark and needles flew. The voices overlapped, rising into a frantic harmony.

“To remember.”

And she did.

A memory she’d never known unfolded in her mind, of standing here as a child beside her mother, watching as the wind took shape for the first time. Her mother’s face had been calm, even reverent.

“It chose us,” she’d whispered, before the wind had poured into her like smoke, and she’d vanished, leaving only the echo of her name in the air.

Now Lena understood. The wind wasn’t speaking to her, but was speaking through her.

She fell to her knees, clutching her head as the gusts tightened around her, threading through her hair, her lungs, her thoughts. The forest blurred into motion.

Leaves and stones lifted into the air. The world seemed to bend inward toward her, folding itself into the hollow where she knelt.

When she screamed, the sound came out wrong, longer, deeper, a tone that belonged to the sky rather than the throat. The wind rushed in, filling her, carrying with it a thousand murmuring names, each one a life swallowed before hers.

Then, silence.

The storm broke with the dawn. The first sunlight touched the trees, and the air settled, calm and clean. The leaves drifted down, and the clearing was empty again.

At the edge of town, the wind stirred once more. It picked up leaves and danced them across the asphalt with the sound of broken glass and chandelier jewels. Then it spoke a name.

But it wasn’t Lena this time.

It was yours.

It takes a lot to rattle Buddy. He’s part hound, part mystery, and all business when it comes to anything that squeaks, slithers, or sneaks after dark.

He’s treed more squirrels than I’ve had cups of coffee, which is saying something. But that night, whatever it was up there in the trees, he wanted no part of it.

He just stood there, hackles up, growling low in his throat like a truck idling on cold diesel. I squinted toward the cliff, trying to pierce the dark.

The moon hung behind a thin veil of clouds, casting just enough light to make shadows look suspicious. Have you ever noticed how the imagination gets bold when visibility drops?

Every stump turns into a crouching figure, every rustle sounds like it’s plotting your demise.

“Go on then,” I whispered, giving Buddy a nudge.

He didn’t move. That should’ve been my first clue to leave well enough alone.

But curiosity, as they say, is stronger than good sense. I picked up my flashlight, one of those plastic ones that looks reliable until you actually need it.

Buddy followed close behind, doing his best impression of a reluctant bodyguard. We reached the base of the South cliff, where the trees thinned, and the ground tilted sharply upward.

Then it came again, that squeal, halfway between a scream and a snort, echoing off the rock face. It was close this time, too close.

I shone the beam upward. For a split second, I saw something pale moving between the trees.

It wasn’t large, but it was quick, darting behind sage like it had somewhere to be. My heart was suddenly too big for my chest.

Buddy barked once, sharply, then backed up and sat down, which is his way of saying, “You’re on your own, pal.”

“Alright,” I muttered, “you just sit there and take notes.”

I scrambled up a few yards, slipping, until I reached the ledge. There, lying in a tangle of roots and branches, was the culprit, a pig, or at least what used to be one, judging by the smell.

Something had been at it, but whatever did the chewing wasn’t around anymore. The “half-human” part of that squeal was probably just the way the sound bounced off the cliff.

I let out the kind of laugh that sounds brave in hindsight but nervous at the time. “Well, mystery solved,” I said aloud, for my own benefit.

Buddy tilted his head, unimpressed. But just as I turned to head back, something else stirred in the brush, a soft shuffle, followed by a long exhale, almost like a sigh.

Buddy’s tail went straight out, and I swear even the wind stopped mid-chorus. We didn’t wait for an encore.

I don’t remember running, exactly, but we were both back at the house in record time. Buddy went straight for his bed, and I locked the door, feeling mildly ridiculous.

The next morning, we went back in daylight. The carcass was gone.

Not dragged, but gone. No tracks, just flattened grass where it had been.

Buddy sniffed the spot, then looked at me as if to say, “Told you so.”

I nodded. “Alright, you win. Whatever it was, it’s your turn to investigate next time.”

He wagged his tail once, which I took as a firm “no.”

And that’s the thing about the South Cliff. Every so often, when the wind’s right, you can still hear that strange squeal.

Folks say it’s just echoes and boar, but we have no such animals. But I’ll tell you Buddy won’t go near it after dark, and I’ve learned to trust his judgment.

When you’re young, not knowing something can feel like a weakness. It’s more than just missing facts—sometimes it’s just admitting you’re a little lost, or not sure you can pull something off. Saying “I don’t know” can feel like you’ve dropped the ball, and folks often see it the same way.

When you’re young, it feels like the world expects you to be sure of everything. You’re supposed to have answers or at least act as if you do. Schools hand out gold stars for quick, sharp answers.

Early jobs want you to look eager and ready for anything. Even just being curious can feel risky. Asking too many questions can make you look as if you’re over your head.

Take too long to answer, and it looks like you don’t know what you’re doing. Stay quiet, and people might think you’ve struck out.

So you learn, early on, to mask uncertainty by bluffing and nodding along. You speak with more confidence than you feel.

You learn the art of sounding capable, even when you’re not. The cost of admitting ignorance is too high.

The irony with youth is that ignorance is most natural and forgivable. No one has lived long enough to know much of anything yet.

And yet youth is when ignorance gets least tolerated. The runway is short, the expectations are loud, and you’re supposed to be becoming something, and becoming requires momentum and mistakes.

Age changes that calculus.

Somewhere along the way, often much later than you expect, the admission of not knowing stops being a liability and starts being read as wisdom. The same sentence that once closed doors begins to open them.

“I don’t know,” spoken by a young person, can sound like a shrug. Said by an older person, especially one who is retired, it can sound like restraint, discernment, and hard-earned humility.

The older person who says, “I’m not sure about that,” isn’t assumed to be uninformed. They’re supposed to be careful.

Retirement sharpens the shift. When you are no longer climbing, competing, or proving your worth through productivity, the pressure to perform evaporates.

You’re no longer auditioning. You’ve already lived the part.

A retired person can say, “I don’t understand this new technology,” and it comes across as a gentle commentary on the world’s speed, not a personal failing. It’s received as wisdom about priorities, not a confession of weakness.

Even confusion, when voiced by someone older, is often treated as insight: a reminder that not everything new is obvious, necessary, or better. What changes isn’t just how others hear it, but how it feels to say it.

With time, you realize that not knowing ain’t a gap but a condition to manage. You learn that certainty is overrated, and that most of the damage in the world comes not from ignorance but from false confidence.

You’ve seen enough plans fail, enough experts be wrong, enough sure things unravel to understand that humility isn’t self-protection, it’s accuracy. There is a power in being able to say, without apology, “That’s beyond me,” or “I don’t have an answer for that,” or “I’ve learned not to rush to judgment.”

These are not statements of retreat, but markers of distance traveled. Unfortunately, this kind of wisdom is rarely accepted when it’s most needed.

The young must pretend to know, while the old are free to admit they don’t. Perhaps we shouldn’t spend the first half of our lives proving our competence, and the second half learning when not to.

Somewhere in between, if we’re fortunate, we discover that not knowing, spoken plainly, honestly, and without fear, was never the problem.

Harold kept three pairs of shoes by the front door, though he hadn’t worn any of them in years. There was a scuffed pair of brown loafers from his teaching days, a pair of walking shoes that still had a tag dangling from one lace, and one set of old army boots that could tell more stories than Harold ever dared to.

Most mornings, his niece, Carrie, would stop by to check on him. She was a whirlwind of sensible energy, always balancing coffee, keys, and conversation simultaneously.

On this particular morning, she stopped short when she saw Harold polishing one of the old boots.

“Uncle Harold,” she said, setting her coffee down, “you don’t even have feet anymore. What are you doing?”

He looked up, squinting through thick glasses. “Well, just because I lost my feet doesn’t mean I have to lose the habit.”

Carrie sighed, though she was smiling. “You’re the only man I know who shines shoes for nostalgia.”

“That’s not nostalgia,” he said. “That’s memory maintenance. If I don’t keep these boots in shape, they’ll start telling lies about me.”

Carrie laughed, but there was a truth sitting quietly in the corner with the cat. Harold had lost both legs below the knees two years ago, but he never let that story take center stage.

He preferred to talk about the time he marched in a parade in those boots, or how he’d danced with her aunt, rest her soul, in those loafers until the soles nearly gave out. He treated those shoes like old friends: retired, yes, but not forgotten.

One day, a neighbor boy wandered over, curious about the man. Harold welcomed him in, the way he did everyone, with a joke and a glass of lemonade.

“Sir,” the boy said after a while, “why do you keep all those shoes if you can’t wear them?”

Harold smiled. “Well, son, that’s a fair question. But let me ask you something, do you have a favorite toy?”

“My baseball glove,” the boy said without hesitation.

“And when you outgrow it,” Harold continued, “you gonna throw it away?”

The boy frowned. “No, I’ll keep it. My dad says it’ll remind me where I started.”

“Exactly,” Harold said. “These shoes remind me where I’ve been. I may not walk in them anymore, but they still carry me places in my mind.”

Later, when the boy left, Harold turned to Carrie. “See? Even kids understand it better than adults sometimes.”

Carrie grinned. “Maybe so. But I still think three pairs is excessive for a man who rolls everywhere he goes.”

He pointed at her sneakers. “Careful, young lady. You’re one broken lace away from understanding me completely.”

That earned him another laugh, which was really what he wanted. Harold figured laughter was the best polish for the soul, keeps it from drying out and cracking under the weight of living.

That evening, as the house quieted, he looked at the lineup by the door. Three pairs of shoes, still waiting for steps that would never come.

But somehow, they didn’t look sad. They looked ready.

Harold nodded to them. “You did your part,” he said softly. “Now I’ll do mine.”

He leaned back in his chair, closed his eyes, and let memory take him down an old dirt road where the sun was setting, and the boots still fit just right. Because in the end, shoes aren’t worth much to a person without feet, unless that person remembers where they’ve walked.

And Harold, well, he remembered just fine.

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